I feel so frustrated I could just explode. Or cry. Maybe both.

You see, I have this skill now, and I'm pretty much burning with a yearning to use it. I've never been so excited about getting a job or going to it. Even when I was volunteering at Alum Rock Stables in San Jose, I had mornings when I got up and thought, "Good God, am I really getting up at 5 in the morning and riding the city bus for 2 hours, just so I can have some free horseback time?"

C'mon, a'ready, I'm chompin' at the bit!

Tomorrow is Alex's birthday. I feel kinda like a schmoe, because I really haven't planned anything. I've entertained a few ideas, but nothing I can really put into effect, not right away. I'd put it off until next weekend, instead of this weekend, but I have graduation on Friday, then my national certification exam on Saturday. Kinda makes me wish I could afford to hire someone to do it all for me. So I could get irritated with them and tell them they're doing it all wrong. Anyhow, we got a bit of a windfall from the credit union, so part of that is going towards buying a new cooler motor, and part is going into Alex's birthday, and the rest is going to sit there looking pretty until we go to Hawaii.

the last trail...the next path