I wish I could talk to Christine. I wish she would tell me what it is about me that makes me so unworthy of everyone else's time. Why don't I have anyone who would drop everything, or even something, to be here for me? How come there is nobody who really cares about how everything is coming together for this anniversary party? I've put so much into it, all by myself. Why am I so alone, Christine? What's wrong with me???

the last trail...the next path